Saturday, September 30, 2017

September Highlights '17

  Not gonna lie, whenever I think about the fact that it's September already I get a little bit confused and concerned and feel like I've been dreaming the entire year because it WENT BY SO FREAKING FAST OHMYWORD.


  • NORMALITY THAT'S NOT NORMAL//It's so strange coming back from a honeymoon and delving straight into a new "normal." It doesn't feel normal quite yet and definitely didn't at first. There's been a lot of adjustment. Cleaning up a messy house - and keeping it clean. Adapting to a new schedule. Job hunting. Fitting activities, events, work, and personal priorities together with someone else and their various things. It's been super strange and now that I think I've mostly passed through the first (and extremely emotional) period of change and adjustment, I am beginning to feel at home where I am, and that is a good feeling. 
  • GIFT OPENING//Upon our return Jonathan and I went to his family's house for our wedding gift opening with both our families and were just totally overwhelmed again by the love that had been showered on us by friends and family. We were blessed with some really cool things and were feeling super super thankful for those who had given so much - not just in gifts, but in time, love, and friendship over the years.
  • LARCH VALLEY HIKE//We got to take a beautiful hike to Larch Valley in Banff National Park with Jonathan's mom and sisters this month - right after I got my hands on a new and lovely camera. I was able to take some cool pictures on the hike and it was really nice to get out and stretch my legs after a week of "settling in" at home. 
  • PHOTOGRAPHY//Speaking of a new camera, it was purchased for the purpose of participating in a Digital Photography program through the college's online continuing education platform. I'm super excited to study and learn more about the technical side of photography and to see how I can grow and improve.
  • BIRTHDAYS AND PARTYS//There were quite a few birthdays this month: my mom, my sister Ava turned 10, my friend Lisa's baby boy Sid turned one, my friend and bridesmaid MacKenzie turned 20, and Jonathan's best friend and best man Vernon had a going away party for his YWAM trip to Australia. So yeah, lots of parties and birthdays. It was pretty fun (though I probably had too much in the way of good food).
  • ALL THE HORSES//I've started back more or less regularly riding at my barn as well as riding the camp horses now that the off-season has come around. I have yet to actually ride my horses since I've been home (it's a 45 minute drive, okay) but I'm hoping to move my mare to my barn next week so I can get working with her more. I'm really looking forward to that. I got to ride my teacher's fat and retired showhorse who is totally awesome but his fat, retiredness makes him a bit on the lazy side. I made him jump anyway cause I'm cruel and unusual.
  • THE HUNT FOR WORK//Has been going slowly. I guess it's only been a couple weeks of serious searching but it has been slightly discouraging. I've never held a "proper, normal" job before so my resume consists of farming, riding horses, volunteer hours, writing books, camp counselling, janitorial work and kitchen work. I feel like it's a bit of a weird mixture. However, this week I did have an interview for a nannying job and an interview at Lammles - so that's something I guess?
  • MEDIA PURSUITS//Jonathan and I finished A Series of Unfortunate Events and are probably complete trash for not having read the books yet but WE WILL I SWEAR (so many books...) We also started Daredevil and that has so far proved to be pretty darn cool, like everyone in this community has been saying for a long time. 


  It's been more a RE-writing month for me as I fumble through my second draft editing of Faithless. I am over half-way through the manuscript at this time and will soon be on the hunt for beta-readers to take me into the following drafts, so stay tuned for that. As much as this book is currently Confirmed Trash I do really enjoy the premise of it and when describing it to people have been told it is intriguing so who knows? Maybe it isn't awful and won't be quite as awful as I feel like it is once it's reworked and fixed up.

  Other than that I haven't been doing too much, mostly taking things slow and easy and giving myself reasonably achievable goals because the BUSYNESS IS REAL GUYS. DON'T BECOME AN ADULT IT'S BAD NEWS.


  I did decently this month considering the constant scrambling from one thing to another that my life feels like right now but I'm still disappointed wishing I could have done better. Le sigh.

NEVERWHERE by Neil Gaiman
I really enjoyed this novel, it was rather Alice in Wonderland-esque and had some very interesting characters and plot twists that had me on the edge of my seat. It was also very weird, but I loved it. Highly recommended

STORM Graphic Novel
I became anti-social at Vern's going-away party and decided to dive into his comic book collection. Storm was very interesting and very well-written and gave me lots of new insight into the character that I had previously not known. I really enjoyed it.

VADER Graphic Novel
This was my second comic I managed to get into and get done before we had to leave (I had to read really fast, like twenty minutes, so I may have missed some things). I really liked this though, I've always enjoyed the character of Anakin/Darth Vader and this series of graphic novels really seems to do him justice. I'll have to look into it more in the future.


  I accidentally totally forgot about my one Sunday post day because Vernon's aforementioned going-away party was also an overnight thing (that involved watching the new Pirates of the Caribbean and having my heart melted and subsequently stabbed through). So posting totally slipped my mind until mid-week and then it was kinda too late so yeah. Apologies. Otherwise, I've been pretty good since I got back. AND I pretty much have my whole schedule for the rest of the year plotted out so I'm super excited for things coming in the next couple months.


Goals for September

  • Start rewrites of Faithless // I am half-way through and even though I find myself smashing my head against the keyboard and being incredibly embarrassed by the mess I churned out, I am really excited to pursue this story. Betas will be needed in the near future!
  • Read 2 books // Does 1 novel and 2 graphic novels count as two books?
  • Blog consistently // More I less I have done this and am happy. 
  • Pick a NaNo project // I think I've decided on finishing Part One of The Wandering for NaNo since I'm bound to be busy and that won't involve too too much in the way of effort for me. Just 12 chapters left to finish!
Goals for October

  • Finish Faithless rewrites // This shouldn't be too difficult seeing as I am more than half-way through at this point. I do have a lot of parts that need fleshing out/adding onto though so we'll see how it goes.
  • Read 2 books // I've started Fevre Dream by George RR Martin and once that is done will have to pick another from a whole slew of books that I want to read right now and that is hard.
  • Promote my Secret Project across the Interwebs // As of now I'm not revealing the blog series I have coming next month, but it's going to be really cool I think (hope) and I really want the idea to take off. So keep an eye out, it's gonna be awesome.
  Well, that was my month in a nutshell. How was your September? AKA Return to Work and School and the Onset of Winter *shudder* What kinds of things are you looking forward to this school term? Do you know what you're writing for NaNo yet? Let's talk!

Friday, September 22, 2017

Happy Hobbit Day! (And Why Frodo Baggins is My Fav)

  Today my blog is celebrating the fictional birthday of probably my most favorite character in all of fiction to ever grace the earth (and his uncle)...

  If you haven't guessed it yet, I'm sorry to say you don't know me very well. 

  Here's a hint...

that is the face of an angel if i ever saw one
  It's September 22nd, the day LotR fans the world over celebrate the birthdays of the MC's in two of the most pivotal books of the 20th century: Bilbo and Frodo Baggins (of The Hobbit and The Lord of the Rings respectively). If you're not a crazy LotR lunatic like myself, you probably weren't aware. That's okay, I forgive you. 

  But I mean, come on guys, it's an excuse to re-watch LotR for the 10003030300222777th time and eat cake and defend Frodo from the haters because he is a precious cinnamon roll, too good, too pure for this world.*

  Now, as much as I enjoy and appreciate Bilbo Baggins - he is the greatest eccentric uncle ever - I have a very special place in my heart for his nephew, Frodo.** I was first sucked into the beautiful black hole of fandom back when I was about 13. I watched The Fellowship of the Ring with some fellow nerd friends and, like a crack addict, I was hooked. I read the books, finished the movies. Read the books again. Watched the movies again. Basically I became a LotR-psycho. 


*That's probably not still a relevant meme but whatevs.
**And no, it's NOT just because Elijah Wood has the window to the universe trapped in his gorgeous eyeballs, good grief. 

  Frodo pretty much immediately became my Ultimate Favorite Character Ever upon first viewing, almost like love at first sight except not actually because DESPITE the beauty of Elijah Wood's ethereal face, my love for Frodo is very very far from romantic. Frodo is not a romantic character, at least, not in that sense of the word. He is brave, selfless, honorable and kind, but he is far from the contemporary view of a romantic. Frodo is one of few characters I could never peg in a romantic relationship. It's just...not part of him, y'know? He's a person who exists more than that, it's a piece that could just never rest easily in him. I think that's some of what sets him apart for me. 


  Another thing I have always been drawn to about Frodo is how Tolkien describes him throughout the series. There's just something about him that is so different than other hobbits, he's often said to be "more elvish" than the others. Just take a look at some of the things Tolkien said about him:

“And here he was, a little halfling from the Shire, a simple hobbit of the quiet countryside, expected to find a way where the great ones could not go, or dared not go. It was an evil fate.”
― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Two Towers

“And there was Frodo, pale and worn, and yet himself again; and in his eyes there was peace now, neither strain of will, nor madness, nor any fear. His burden was taken away.” 
― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Return of the King

“Then as he had kept watch Sam had noticed that at times a light seemed to be shining faintly within; but now the light was even clearer and stronger. Frodo's face was peaceful, the marks of fear and care had left it; but it looked old, old and beautiful, as if the chiseling of the shaping years was now revealed in many fine lines that had before been hidden, though the identity of the face was not changed. Not that Sam Gamgee put it that way to himself. He shook his head, as if finding words useless, and murmured: "I love him. He's like that, and sometimes it shines through, somehow. But I love him, whether or no.” 
― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Two Towers

“He is not half through yet, and to what he will come in the end not even Elrond can foretell. Not to evil, I think. He may become like a glass filled with a clear light for eyes to see that can.” 
― J.R.R. Tolkien

  That last one is my favorite. I think it describes Frodo absolutely perfectly. Honestly, I have a hard time describing what exactly I see in this character. I think maybe there's a lot of myself reflected in him, the sense of feeling like there's more I should be striving for than just what's right in front of me perhaps? It's hard to pinpoint. All I know is that Frodo represents a part of my soul in a tangible, personable way that I have not experienced with any other character. This is what I believe really attracts me to him. 


  A lot of people like to hate on Frodo. This, as you can probably imagine, rankles me a bit.* I've heard various different stupid things said about him: "whiny, useless, not special, etc." The absolute worst is when people put him down to lift up his companion, Sam. Now, don't get me wrong, Sam is a fantastic character, who was totally a hero and Frodo definitely needed and relied on him, but do I think that takes away from Frodo as a character, or makes Sam the hero in his place? DEFINITELY not. They were both heroes, they both needed the other. But it was Frodo that bore the burden of the Ring, and Frodo alone. 

*Or like, a heck ton of a lot. Fight me, Frodo-haters.

  I've never personally been able to convey a proper defense of Frodo's characterization, but I have read plenty from other Frodo-lovers like myself. Below I have included a screenshot of what I think is one of the best ones I've come across. Please read it, enjoy it, and maybe it will help you understand just what I see in this beautiful character, Frodo Baggins.

  Well, now that I've spammed you with my Frodo-love and wished you a Happy Hobbit Day! you should probably be logging off to make yourself a cake and go re-watch/re-read your favorite parts of the LotR trilogy. That's just the proper thing to do on a celebratory day like today, amirite? Run along, young hobbit, enjoy this momentous occasion! 

  And don't forget to leave a comment! Are you a LotR junkie like me? Who's your favorite character from the trilogy? Or do you have an entirely different fictional character who inspires you like Frodo does me? Let's talk!

Sunday, September 17, 2017

6 Struggles of Moving Out for the First Time

  Since I had a totally busy weekend and have not had the time to put together a decent post, I am here tonight, throwing this together at the last minute to continue my good posting streak. Also, now that I have done the unthinkable and actually left home forever I do have things to rant/talk about. I'm curious to share some of my thoughts, feelings and experiences in this area and see if anyone else has felt the same way, or maybe prepare you for some of the weird sensations that come when you step out completely on your own for the first time. So, here we go.


  To be honest, this one is fairly straightforward for me. My old house, my parent's place, my farm is my home. I'll probably always think of it that way. But it's SUPER weird to have another place that you live in that's supposed to technically be your home, but it's not really your home, y'know? It's not the place that holds all the memories. That can't be replaced very easily after twenty years. All of it just becomes confusing. 


  This is difficult. Mocking siblings is the pinnacle of my existence and now there's none to tease? It just isn't right, or fair. What am I supposed to do with myself now? All this extra time to spare...


  If you were lucky, like I was, you had a really awesome mom with a really high standard of cleanliness....that really just can't be met when you yourself are super lazy but still don't like feeling like you're walking around in dirt and grime all the time. So you've gotta do something about it, but ugh, work. It's a vicious cycle where it's mentally damaging to sit in the filth but so, so hard to do anything about it. 

   **My house isn't that bad, my mom just has crazy high standards that I'm used to. 


  We might as well state right now that I'm probably the least domestic person in the history of ever and I can't cook or bake to save my life. I love food, but the act of making food is so slow and boring and time-consuming and I could be doing literally anything else and be much, much happier and more productive. So, naturally, moving away from said-amazing-mother is a bit difficult in this regard. Since I have to not only do the cleaning, but the cooking too. And I have high standards for food as well. Thanks mom and grandma. 


  Of course this is not a struggle that applies to everyone, but for me, it is hard. I have only ever lived in one town of 100 people and spent most of my time at the farm anyway, so moving into the city has been...well, unpleasant. Tap water is disgusting. The roads are noisy. I don't hear coyotes anymore. I can't see the stars so well. Le sigh. I don't like it.


  This one is the worst. Renting a place often means no animals allowed. I miss my dogs and my cats a lot, and my horses as well (though of course they couldn't exist here at all). I've always had pets in my life and not having them is definitely a hard thing to give up. 

  There you have it, 6 Struggles of Moving Out. Perhaps a few can relate, for some it may serve as a future warning. :P In all seriousness though, moving out is pretty cool. It's a whole new, thrilling adventure and another chapter started in your life. It's pretty neat to see all the different things that begin to unfold when your life takes such a drastic turn. I won't pretend there aren't some hard things too (as mentioned above), and those take a bit of getting used to/getting through. Change can be cool, but it can be difficult too. And that's totally fine. I'm learning that all I really need to do is trust in God, sit back and enjoy the ride. Cherishing memories and living moment by moment and looking forward to the future with hope. Doing that, the change is not quite so hard or bad, in fact, it's pretty cool. 

  How did you cope with big changes in your life like moving out? Did I encourage or discourage you with my little rants? XD Let me know below!

Sunday, September 10, 2017

Summer Highlight Reel '17 // Whereupon I Return from the Dead

Wowza. In the time since I ran away in June my life went into warp speed and completely exploded in the loveliest and most awesome ways. Summer is nearly over and the boring things of the fall season such as going back to work and school will be upon us shortly. However, there are so many exciting things to come in the next few months and I'm really looking forward to them all. However, today's post is a highlight reel/wrap-up/trip-down-memory-lane of summertime! Allow me a moment to reminisce...


In July...

  • Started off the month with celebrations of Canada's 150th year on July 1st. My hometown typically has a parade, barn dance event, and fireworks in the evening that are all impressive for the hamlet-size my town is. Unfortunately, I missed the parade due to still being at staff camp but was able to make both the dance and fireworks. Both of which were great as per usual. 
Waiting for fireworks
  • The following day was a birthday date out in the Rockies near Abraham Lake with Jonathan, whose birthday was two days prior and mine was to be the following day. We both turned twenty this year and had a great time out in the beautiful Albertan backyard. 
  • Then it was my 20th birthday, I had some friends out to the lake for a swim as is tradition and then went back to my house for cake. Seeing the 2 and 0 on my cake was slightly frightening and a little sad, but there was excitement in it too. I am probably the world's youngest looking twenty-year old but that's okay, I'm beginning to come to terms with my ancient age.

  • As camp weeks went on and off throughout the month, my sister and I came home after a week of work one evening to find a new puppy at home - to our great delight. A border collie female we eventually named Jess who is super cute and funny and not all that bright but adorable nonetheless. I haven't seen her in weeks now and I imagine she's gotten giant. 

  • One of my best friends, Kenzie, returned from her year long mission trip to Cameroon, Africa in the midst of the crazy July, and that was awesome. I had missed her so much while she was gone and it was so great to have her home for the celebrations, thrills and new experiences the summer had to offer. She was dearly missed!
  • My dear friend and once camp counselor, Sarah, married her husband Jesse in July and I got to be there to enjoy the event. I thought her wedding was so beautiful and the location was amazing. I could gush about it forever. 
All of the camp people who attended their wedding!
  • Jonathan and I went with his parents to the city to shop for camping supplies and furniture and let me say, mine and Jonathan's first trip as almost-married-adults to IKEA together went just about exactly how you'd expect. 
  • Nearing the end of the month my family hosted the third annual Princess Party where homeschooling families and friends from the area get dressed up in their best medieval attire and go gallavanting about for the afternoon. Us older girls always take the horses out for a ride in our dresses and of course did that again this year. We also made a trip into town to watch the new Spiderman movie which was EPIC. 
  • Jonathan and I began renting our first house together and moved stuff in and later moved ourselves in as well. It's a three story townhouse that's actually pretty darn nice for a college student and writer to have hoped to accomadate and I'm quite liking it. 
It is slightly nicer looking now...
  • I participated in a jumping clinic at my barn with a green jumper prospect named Link who thought that it was his job to get over every jump AS FAST AS POSSIBLE so that was an interesting time. It was a good experience though, and I learned a ton. 
  • I was at camp pretty much the entire month, working one week as a counselor and the rest as a wrangler in charge of the younger junior staff. This was a summer of learning and growth and my camp experiences were all so much more uplifting than usual. In past years I have had periods of crippling depression hit hard in the camp summer, but this was the first year where this did not happen. An act of God I guess? It was a great summer though, so so many cool highlights and new adventures with such good friends.

In August...
  • There was MORE camp in August, one time in this month Jonathan and I were thrown into the ice cold pool as a wedding gift. There were lots of other fun times like that, all adding up to make it a great summer. 
  • Between the last two camps I had my bachelorette party which was basically two days of swimming and frolicking with my friends. Probably among the biggest of summer highlights. At one point while we were at the lake, Elise drug out a large fallen tree and we all began climbing up on it and jumping off. Doing flips and dives and all sorts of things, it was super fun.
  • My lovely Australian family came out for the wedding, including my best cousin Rebecca, whose beautiful voice opened our wedding ceremony a week after her arrival. I really enjoyed a week of catching up with her and sharing the Spiderman series with her. We got through them all (and I only sort of fell asleep from exhaustion in parts)!
  • The day before the wedding was the decorating, rehearsal and sleepover at camp for the bridal party (since the ceremony took place at mine and Jonathan's summer camp). That was an absolute blast, despite the bit of stress that had begun to settle in for me. I had so much fun eating great food, trying to organize some of the least organized people in the Northern Hemisphere, playing handball, watching Tim Hawkins videos and reading Song of Songs in the cabin with the girls late into the night. It was a great last day of singlehood.

  • And then it was our wedding! Wow. I know it sounds cheesy, but it was definitely the best day of my life. I can't describe how it feels to be surrounded by all the people who love and support you as you step into an incredible new adventure with the love of your life and your best friend. It was a day of total bliss and I felt so at peace about it, there was practically zero stress through the entire day and that was such a blessing. I don't have any of my official photos yet, but the ones friends and family took have their own charm and beauty. It was an amazing day.
  • Ever since that day I have been road-tripping through the country with Jonathan. From Waterton, Alberta, to Coeur d'Alene, Idaho, to Seattle, Washington, to Vancouver, BC, to Kelowna, BC and home again. It's been a fantastic trip. Highlights include: hiking Crypt Lake, downtown Seattle (even if we were there with no map or GPS), cheesecake with friends on the beach in Vancouver, hanging out with family on Quadra Island, backpacking Juan de Fuca, and raiding all the Kelowna bookstores. It's been an incredible three weeks. I would not change it for the world.


I don't really regret saying that I literally wrote nothing these two months. I was living life and had some amazing experiences that I wouldn't trade for anything, and that is more important to me. However, I am itching to get back to work and can't wait to continue my projects and share stuff with you guys once more. Faithless is next on the list for rewrites in preparation for beta-readers later this year, so stay tuned for that! Also have to decide on a NaNo project...


I actually got some reading done!! :DD Part of my honeymoon was literally three days of lying out in the woods reading books and that was so so nice. 

BRAVE NEW WORLD//Aldous Huxley
Very thought-provoking, mildly disturbing, and highly engaging. This book reminded me a lot of 1984 by George Orwell in tone but the plot and characters are very different. Hugely recommended if you like adult dystopias and classics.

A lovely book, warm and heartfelt and close to home, I thoroughly enjoyed Abigayle Claire's Christian contemporary novel. There were twists and turns that drew me in and loving moments between the characters. I love the portrayal of Gemma - not as an angsty, rebellious teen who won't allow anyone to come close to her, but as someone genuinely frightened and broken looking for love. I love her character arc, and how the romance is not love at first sight, but something that grows out of compassion and kindness. Great story for those who enjoy heart-warming tales about family, hospitality (hence the title), and love.

THE NAME OF THE WIND//Patrick Rothfuss
Jonathan encouraged me to start this series and I was not disappointed by his taste. Patrick Rothfuss weaves an intricate web of mystery, adventure, and bravado that all fantasy books should boast. 
What I enjoy and find unique about this series as opposed to many other fantasy books is:
a) That the author focuses on only one character, allowing him to really hone said character and write so descriptively and thoroughly about everything. 
b) The portrayal of female characters is varied and on the whole, interesting and unique.
c) That magic is portrayed as mostly a scientific venture. 

Some criticism is the portrayal of the main character Kvothe, who - since he is the singular main protagonist - suffers from a bit of Mary-Sue syndrome, simply because the author has limited himself to placing all the characteristics/abilities he wants to include into only one character. However, Kvothe is still completely likable as a character and the book is extremely well-written, humorous and interesting. Highly recommended.

Great graphic novel. Incredible artwork, writing and plot. The concept was super interesting and played out very well among the Suicide Squad cast of characters.


Well, obviously nonexistent since, y'know, hiatus and all that. But never fear! I have returned with a bit of a blogging schedule and plans to continue my consistent posting that was happening before summer began. I promise! However, I did get up to 30 followers this summer, which is a super cool nice, satisfying, round number for me. XD


Goals for July/August

  • Sell 50 copies of The Sorceress and the Squid // I have sold quite a few copies, probably not 50 unfortunately, but close. And I am proud of that. Now that I'm home I can try to get back into marketing again.
  • Read 2 books // This was totally completed (only on my honeymoon, lol) and I am proud of that. I'm hoping for more reading time once I settle into some sort of routine in my new environment. 

Goals for September

  • Start rewrites of Faithless // I'm hoping to have this up and ready for beta-readers in the next few months, so stay tuned for that. The book is a mess right now but I think that I can really make it great. I'm excited to get back to it. 
  • Read 2 books // My monthly goal til year's end. I think I can do this fairly easily. 
  • Blog consistently // Now that I'm home and back to regular life this shouldn't be hard. 
  • Pick a NaNo project // I'm trying to decide if I should finish the last 12 chapters of the first part of my second fantasy novel (The Wandering), or if I should finish The Snow Dragon. Do you have an opinion? Let me know!

  Well guys, that was, again, a crazy awesome summer. Definitely one of the best of my life. There are so so many great moments and memories caught up in it. And while I am sad to put it and so many other things behind me, I am super excited to look ahead to the coming year, particularly where writing is concerned. I have a lot of plans, guys! Yeah, yeah, I always have a lot of plans. :P We'll see which ones *actually* happen I guess. For now, I want to hear all about your summer! Did you have any cool adventures? Events? Trips? Campfire nights? Beach days? Tell me all about it! :DD

  Happy Almost Fall, Everyone!